Sunday blog again!

I hope you've all had a good week my lovelies!

I've really slacked this week with blogging!! It wasn't my intention, just been one of those busy weeks. I've been reading blogs now and again but not getting round to writing one myself...

Well, following my last post I am pleased to report that Harry Potter was AMAZING!!! I absolutely loved it! I think that it's the best HP film yet by far and Steph loved it too. I actually wanted to cry in two places (how sad is that!!) but I didn't because I thought "OMG you can't cry at a Harry Potter film!!"... some people around me were though.

If you're not into HP you'll think I'm completely mad... but I loved this scene :D

Steph & I about to meet Mr Potter :)

Also, I haven't forgotten about my remaining Germany posts, I will get round to it eventually... it's just that I have a terrible habit of writing too much once I get started, and I find that hours have suddenly vanished!

On Thursday I went to see my Counsellor for the first time. I had a bad time in January/February and my GP referred me so that I could talk things through and exorcise some ghosts that have haunted me for years. Six months later and I finally got an appointment. BTW, this is not an NHS bashing comment. In light of recent STUPID comments by a certain politician, it is probably a good time to make it clear that I LOVE the NHS!! I have certainly had cause to use it many times throughout the course of my life and the service has been brilliant... it's just a sad fact that there are lots of depressed people around at the moment so I had to wait my turn! I am much, much better than I was but know that I need to get everything out of my system once and for all.

It was only an assessment session this week where she told me what it involved and then asked me for some background info before we start proper in a fortnight. As soon as I opened my mouth I cried and kept crying for almost the duration of the session... I couldn't believe it! I TOLD myself that I wouldn't cry, whatever happened. I really HATE crying in front of other people. What a wally!!

Thinking it all over later that evening I started to feel really angry with people and situations long since in the past, generally stuff that I've buried somewhere deep in my brain. It kind of surprised me, not least because I'm not an angry person. I do get mildly annoyed (quite frequently haha!) but this was real burning anger, an alien feeling for me and not pleasant. Instead of punching the life out of a pillow or something, I chatted to my lovely Aunty Sue. She probably understands me the best out of my entire family. It helped. I love you Aunty Sue! xx

Oh, I didnt get to see any meteors either because it was cloudy. Gutted!

Odelle & I at the start of the night!

Last night I went on a girls night out in the next town to celebrate my friend Odelle's birthday (her birthday is on Tuesday) and had a brilliant time even though I didn't drink as I had to drive home (I live around 20 mins drive from where Odelle lives). There were 7 of us and we started off at a pub and then went to a local Chinese restaurant where we were booked in for one of those "All You Can Eat" meals. The food was LUSH, and always a good opportunity to try lots of new dishes :)

We had a bit of a supernatural moment though - still in shock about it!! We were all sitting chatting between courses ... and our friend Donna's wine glass suddenly shattered in her hand!! It literally seemed to pop and wine flew up her arm. We all sat open mouthed silence for a few seconds trying to comprehend what had just happened. Luckily Donna was fine as the glass had fallen onto the table, although she was a wee bit wine soaked (luckily white not red!). We tried to explain to the waitress what happened but she clearly thought that Donna had been messing around with it.... though to be fair exploding glasses are not an everyday occurence!

We went back to the pub afterwards and sat in the beer garden. It was such a hot night (still 21 degrees C at 1am when Jayne's hubby gave us a lift back to Odelle's) and it wasn't too busy either so we all just sat, completely chilling out... bliss! It was a bit strange being the only sober person though - for a change!

It was about 1:40am by the time I left Odelle's and although I was tired it was one of the nicest drives I've ever had, even though I've used that stretch of road hundreds of times before. I'm 45 mins from Cambridge and 90 minutes from London but live in a rural area. The drive between Odelle's town and my town takes you through the deepest darkest Fens with no light pollution, and the stars were absolutely breathtaking. I have honestly never seen such a vivid blanket of stars before. The moon hung bright and low in the East. When I got home I went into my back garden and stared upwards for ages. It was so quiet and still, a perfect summer's night :)

I got to bed at about 4am I think, and got up at 11:30am, though to be honest I probably would have slept a lot longer if the phone hadn't woken me. Haven't managed to wake up all day really! I've even had to resort to coffee, and I never drink coffee :)

I'm going to toodle off to bed now - oh gosh as usual I've rambled on far too much - have probably sent you to sleep too! This is what happens when I write a post without a clear objective... Note to self: MUST CONCENTRATE!!

xx